http://siugnil-etevaf.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] siugnil-etevaf.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] rareslash2011-06-05 03:49 am

Shades That Fill The Grey: One - Six

Title: The Shades That Fill The Grey
Type: Drabble Series
Fandom: Escape The Fate / Falling In Reverse
Pairing: Ronnie Radke / Max Green
Rating: PG, eventual NC17/R
Warnings: Real person slash, angst, existential crisis, foul language, substance abuse, violence, non-consensual
Description: A drabble series of Ronnie/Max, started from when they met to now, possibly beyond.
Disclaimer: Obviously I own neither Max nor Ronnie, or any content associated with them or their bands. All events and situations depicted in this story are totally and completely fictitious, any similarities to reality are purely coincidental.
Summary: He'll never realize what it all means until it's too late.
A/N: There's a companion piece from Ronnie's POV, called 'All The Violent Colors I See' that may or may not be up by time you read this. Posted 6 at a time to avoid spam.

One: To whom it may concern

He's always been drawn in by him,

His energy, his electricity,

His surprising loyalty

So he never pays much thought to all the little things he notices

He figures he can't be the only one.

He'll never understand what it all means until it's too late.


Two: Kill the functions

He never likes days like these ones

The ones the other boy's humanity is so apparent

He's become his pillar of strength

Always so unbreakable, untouchable

But the small crease between his brows

And the slight hunch to his shoulders

Construe a fake sort of happiness,

One only he seems to recognize


Three: Nothing's as it seems

It comes as a bit of a shock the first time he hears it

He'd always thought of the other boy as distant

Like there was no way he'd ever need anyone

So the night the other tells him he's his closest friend

He feels a small sort of elation

Knowing maybe he's needed too


Four: It haunts me in my dreams

Sometimes the other boy scares him

He comes around, or calls him over

After he's taken his drugs

It always makes him nervous,

The way his eyes roll back

How violent he can get

But still he always stays

No matter how bad it gets with him

It's always worse without


Five: Reflections of false hope

Secretly, he wonders if soul-mates exist

He wonders what form they come in

Lover, friend, mentor, who knows

He'd never say it aloud

But he feels like he's found his

It has nothing to do with love or affection

Loosing him, no matter how much he puts him through,

Would mean losing a piece of himself


Six: I'd take you to the darkest place

He feels like he's losing him

He knows that it's the drugs

The rift between them is widening rapidly

And he doesn't know how to feel,

What to do

So one day when he offers to bring him along

He agrees, he'd never do anything else anyway